WARNING: This post contains MALE BASHING
The past few weeks have been rough, but the icing was put on the cake today. If you want to piss off a woman, take her for granted. I'm already tired, stressed out, and lacking hours of sleep. So why, why, would you take my kindness for weakness? I am not a weak person or one to bite my tongue. The worst thing you can tell me when I'm giving 120%, is that I don't care and I don't understand. Are you serious, really? I don't understand. What the hell, I don't understand that I have been putting up with your bullshit for at least ten years because we are "friends", I don't understand that you lied to me when it was not even necessary, I don't understand that I have listened to your same tired ass excuse repeatedly. I don't care that you took time out of your "busy" schedule to take care of me because I am unappreciative and selfish. Are you f'ing kidding me, unappreciative?
Today I was accused of lacking sympathy and not understanding what my "friend" is going through. Ok, so now I am pissed, don't tell me I don't understand life is not all roses and champagne for me right now either. When I start acting as if I don't give a damn, that is when things will surely change and I will be pampered for a short while, and then the same cycle will begin again. Not this time, I'm tired, I am officially turning into the evil bitch that everyone seems to think I am. I have tried to rationalize this cycle of me being nice to people and then me getting the bad end of the deal. From this day forward, I will keep my friends close, and my enemies even closer. Enemies or those who don't have anything nice to say about me please know that I have identified you and will be cautiously waiting on you to attack. I don’t believe in revenge, but karma is a BITCH, that is one of my best friends. It’s a damn shame when one person can make you change your attitude, I wish I could say it was one person, but this week it was four. When people show you who they are, believe them, don't give them the benefit of the doubt that they were acting on impulse, they have shown you who they really are.
As I calm down for the evening and begin to relax and regain my composure. I have to end this rant with a positive ending. Being upset is a temporary state of mind, I will not allow anger to take over and steal my joy. I am the bigger person, and I cannot receive my blessings by behaving irrationally.
My advice, if you cannot change the people around you, change the people around you.
This evenings Wine selection: Folie a Deux Menage a Trois White 2005